[Save Me]or{Break Me} (Mosca/Halo) [Private]

[Ärï]

And I am aware now of how
everything’s gonna be fine one day
Too late, I’m in hell

Mosca's silence troubled Halo. He didn't really want to leave her but making her look so confused...it just didn't seem right to make her remember whatever it was that had torn her apart. Slowly he stepped closer to Mosca and touched his muzzle against her cheek and nudged her muzzle with his so she would meet his gaze rather then stare at her paws. "Sorry" he murmured, not knowing what else to say. He'd obviously brought back painful memories and feelings for Mosca, ones she didn't want to remember nor feel.

And I am aware now of how
everything’s gonna be fine one day
Too late, I’m in hell

[.Rabid Lycan.]

The ebony fae closed her eyes as Halo touched her, but ended up looking right into his when he nudged her muzzle upwards. Slowly, she faded back into awareness.
She shook her head.
"No, Halo," she murmured softly, still looking into his eyes. "Don't be sorry. It's me... I'm afraid of lov--"
Shut up!
She snapped her jaws tightly shut, ears burning with discomfiture. Quickly, she tore away from Halo's gaze and did the only thing she could think to do.
She ran. As fast as she could. Into the forest.

[Ärï]

I'm hangin' on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground.
And I'm hearin' what you say,
But I just can't make a sound.
Then you go and cut me down...

Halo stepped back as Mosca turned and fled. His topaz orbs were smoldering with sadness but he did not chase her. Instead, Halo turned and padded into the forest, following a path worn by the paws of wolves and prey alike. Moonlight shimmered over his ivory pelt though his head wasn't held as high as it had once been. His tail flicked now and then as he walked, listening to the silence of a winter night though his heart felt heavier then ever before. He should have known better, should have kept his distance. He knew better now. Halo raised his head and lengthened his stride, vanishing into the undergrowth.

You tell me that you need me,
But wait...
You tell me that you're sorry,
Didn't think I'd turn around...
And say...
That it's too late to apologize.

[.Rabid Lycan.]

Mosca found herself on the cliff where Halo had fallen from. From this height, she lowered her head, weighted by all that had happened to her in her life. And, most of all, by what she had just done to Halo.
Her legs locked so she couldn't run anymore. She turned around, looking back at the forest.
"Dear Lupus... what have I done?"
She closed her eyes, feeling more horrible than she had in a long while. Fell was dead, Thite didn't love her, and she had just ran away from her only chance at love again...
Why must this keep happening? Why can't I just tell him and see what he says before...
She howled her frustration to the night sky.
I think I do love him... he's the only one who understands. The only one that hasn't deserted me. And I always feel... different when he's near...
As she howled, her confusion began turning in on itself.
How the Hellfire do I know how he feels?

[Ärï]

I'd take another chance,
Take a fall, take a shot for you.
I need you like a heart needs a beat,
But it's nothin' new.
I loved you with a fire red,

Halo heard Mosca's cry but only stopped running. He listened, letting the sound wash over him like waves upon a shore. He wasn't sure if he wanted to reply, heck, Halo wasn't sure of anything anymore or that was how it seemed. He felt oddly cold inside, like he had been before, back to his mute silence and haunting gaze like a lost soul wondering between hellfire and the twilight realms. Turning his muzzle skyward, Halo let out his own short call, a single tone, cold and hollow. The sound held nothing of real substance other then sadness, heavy sadness but it was not a sadness he hadn't expected. Love always seemed to evade him so why try? He'd let himself get carried away and now he had to deal with it. His heart felt like it was turned to stone, cold and heavy in his chest, his insides hollowed out. Halo let his call die away, the sorrowful cry echoing slightly.

Now it's turnin' blue...
And you say...
Sorry, you're not the angel
Heaven let me think was you...
But I'm afraid...

[.Rabid Lycan.]

Mosca heard the cry, and twinges of relief flooded her mind. He hasn't gone... he isn't gone.
She raised her muzzle and howled even louder... it was of longing, this time. But it was risky to do so, especially for a cautious wolf such as herself.
If I could just say it...

[Ärï]

You tell me that you need me,
Then you go and cut me down...
But wait...
You tell me that you're sorry,
Didn't think I'd turn around...
And say...

The volume of Mosca's howl grew and the nature of it changed. Halo closed his eyes and remained silent this time. The brute took off running suddenly, snow flying behind him at his sudden speed change. He was running as fast as he could, away from Mosca this time. He would give her space, step back and stay away. He was closing down again, cold and quiet. The brightness that had appeared in his eyes when he'd been with Mosca, flickered out and his eyes once more turned cold amber.

That it's too late to apologize.
It's too late...
I said it's too late to apologize.
It's too late.

[.Rabid Lycan.]

Mosca looked out from her view on the cliff, looking out into the forest. Her eyes searching...searching.. and finding. The movement of snow stirring between the trees.
What is that--Halo? Yes-Yes, that's him, but why is he-- no. No...
She jumped to her paws and broke into a dead sprint in Halo's direction.
I already lost Thite. I'm not losing Halo too... no. I won't.
Her howl died out as she concentrated her energy on running.

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This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

Halo was unaware of his pursuer. In fact, he was unaware of most things but they were unimportant things that didn't need noticing. His paws kicked up the snow with the speed and power of his run, weaving between trees with moonlight dappling his coat. Powerful muscles flexed under his coat, the wind whispering in his ear and sending a chill down his spine. He wasn't sure where he was running to but that seemed unimportant. All he knew was he had to get away from Mosca's howl. With a soft grunt he leapt over a fallen tree and as fleet as a deer and as silent as a ghost, continued running through the moonlit forest.

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

[.Rabid Lycan.]

Mosca sped after him.
Is that him? No- a shadow... What about-- yes. Yes, that's him.
She saw a figure far ahead, but, alas, a figure. It was hard to keep track of Halo, with his white fur blending into the snow around him. So she watched the ground, praying that the prints in the snow would stay there.
"HALO!" she howled, unsure if he would hear.
Meanwhile, she continued to pick up speed.

[Ärï]

Turn it inside out so I can see
The part of you that's drifting over me
'Cause when I look you're, you're never there
But when I sleep you're, you're everywhere
You're everywhere

Halo heard his name being called and his pace slowed a bit, his stride still a brisk walk though he was no longer running. The brute turned in one fluid motion so he was facing Mosca as she ran toward him. His eyes smoldered through the darkness between them, moonlight lighting him from behind, casting his shadow along. "Yes Mosca?" he barked, his lyrics once more formal, almost cold. He wouldn't let himself get too close, not this time. "You might want to hurry, I have pups to look for." He hadn't really given much thought to finding Kasa and Shiro but now it seemed like a pretty good excuse.

Tell me how I got this far
Tell me why you're here and who you are
'Cause every time I look
You're never there
And every time I sleep
You're always there

[.Rabid Lycan.]

Mosca skidded to a halt in front of Halo, wanting to pant and relax... but there was too much to be said to relax.
"Halo..." She felt choked again. No.. this time you say it! she told herself it.
"I spent most of my life tracking down wolves who have commited true evil, and sworn revenge on my brother. I've always known that this was a dangerous life... that I could die from it. And, because of that, I've never..." she forced the words out, "loved without thinking that I'm hurting someone."
She managed to force herself to look right into Halo's eyes. "It is that exact reason that Thite turned to love another wolf instead. And now I know better. I'm not letting another wolf go because of my fear, I will not...
"Halo, I think I'm in love with you."
And then she fell into immediate silence, her eyes hazing with the dread of his response. Should I have drowned myself in that river all those moons ago?

[Ärï]

'Cause you know,
you know, you know
That I love you
I have loved you all along

Halo listened with closed eyes as Mosca spoke her peice. He was certainly surprised when Mosca confessed to thinking she was in love, with him nonetheless. Topaz eyes drifted open and met Mosca's frightened gaze. Why frightened? Of course, the bitter taste of rejection. She'd tasted it once and it had left its mark. Halo wasn't an emotional wolf, even during Merci's living time he had never been one to show emotion and rarely smiled a true smile. His eyes were guarded and careful. Confessions of love were delicate things, easily torn apart or forgotten. Halo knew and understood that because he had lived it once and wished not to see it again. It seemed Mosca felt the same. She was scared he would turn and walk away but he knew he couldn't do that to her, as cautious as he was. He couldn't guard his heart forever, however hard he might try.

Slowly, Halo stepped forward toward Mosca and reached forward. His muzzle brushed her neck, nuzzling her neck gently. He was hesitant and careful though, resting his head against her neck for a moment before stepping back. "I know" he murmured softly. Halo couldn't speak the words but his gaze told all. A new light had come to his topaz eyes as if the flames behind his eyes had been relit and held an affectionate note that only those that knew him well would be able to see.

And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

[.Rabid Lycan.]

Mosca inclined her head, at first unsure. He hadn't spoken. But then Halo touched her, and she closed her eyes. She relaxed slightly, as she hadn't been able to do in a long while. He didn't seem mad; didn't seem to want to cast her out into the darkness that she had so blindly tread for the past few moons or so.
Her ears went back, head still bowed and eyes still closed. But there was no signs of discomfort or despair. Only a serene silence that seemed to stretch on and on. She felt only small flecks of doubt at Halo's caution, but blocked it out. Ignore the doubt, now... ignore it all.
"I found my place in the world after all," she thought out loud, in a soft whisper of breath. And the serene silence came again.

[Ärï]

Lost in this moment with you
I am completely consumed
My feeling's so absolute
There's no doubt

Halo licked Mosca's muzzle and touched his nose lightly against her cheek. It seemed almost odd to be able to actually touch another wolf which was something he'd avoided for moons. "Is this the place you wanted?" Halo asked softly. He put his muzzle under Mosca's, lifting her head slightly so she would meet his gaze. His touch was gentle, his words soft spoken and lyrics barely a whisper. To an onlooker they would have been quite a sight, a white wolf and a black wolf standing together in a winter-dead forest surrounded by snow and moonlight. Yin and yang, light and dark.

Sealing our love with a kiss
Waited my whole life for this
Watching all my dreams come true
Lost in this moment with you